Sunday, September 18, 2005
im not ok today, mood was upside down with emotional, anger, moody and so on. i dont know why what's wrong with me. No, no, no PMS today. everything is not right with me. if something hurt my mood and i started to cry like a crybaby. haiz, im reali2 sad seh but i dont know why. i avoid everybody and rejected the ringing phone and dear like an investigator and ask me this and that and he dont trust me. Mebbe dat makes me soooo moody.
Yest was a happy day for me thou i stayed in my house. Dear cum to my house quite late and he bought me and bro KFC and he bought me a gift, ADIDAS snowcap and i simply love it lagi2 from my dear bf and i bought him nothing for this month aniversary. dear play ps with bro and didnt stayed quite long cus its getting late and we chat thru phone quite late and i miss him badly yest night before goin to bed. hahhahaa...and i had a really bad bad dream....
Tmrw goin to poly again and ask f0r mc again cus my sore still the same.
ive no mood today and dear neglected me and didnt comforted me. haiz, i shud comfort myself then. till then. bye.
Friday, September 16, 2005
i'm still not recover yet. my eye still swell and redness and my right eye goin to develop a swell. i really hope i get well soon and all the teary, redness and swellneess gone away as soon as possible. im sick and tired staying in this house doing nothing atleast i keje ade duit jugak dari dok umah kan. kan kan kan.
Today our 8 months together and i hope it will last long even i always ask for separation but inside my heart quite pains just to leave like that. i believe in karma and fate. if one day we go for a separation, i will not be sad cus godwill's and i will go smooth way. we always misunderstanding, argument and lack of communication. sometimes we dont understand each otha feeling or talking. im the one who's always show trantrum but not really my fault he always makes me go mad and mock at him but still syg that buncit. hahahaaa.
I miss Endang and cherry so much. i miss when the fussy guest come to our spa and want us treat them high standard and we will make face and jus explain and explain until they get used of spa facilities and we go hurray2 when they check out. we will sneak inside eating snacks or food. hahahaa....
t8ill then...chao.
Monday, September 12, 2005
Maybe i have a mood swing and down with sore. everything i see semue tak kena even a small2 thing i want to blow up.
Afternoon after lunch time see the doctor cus i have a sore eye on my left side. i get 2 days but i dont tink so i recovered by tomorrow its getting bad to worse. i have this mood swing not due to pms. i have hurt someone with my smses but who care whose fault actually but i mean it well. cum on get into your mind and change yourself. argh..GTH....
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Hi bloggers.
Sucha a long time i didnt update my blog. Busy this few month and i have to go to work and school and im sick and tired of the daily routine and how i wished i live in a good life. hmm, too bad im still standing into the reality that i never had in my life.
School and work really make me to stop doing what i do. im really so tired but ive no choice too choose. if im not working i wont be like now. what i want i get it but im really fucking tired working in the Andana Spa. Schooling is the another want that makes me go crazy and lazy and how i wished that im really so educated but the facts is im not so educated. No education no life in singapore.
arghh. later on im going to work again..
