Sunday, June 26, 2005
I had changed. i dont care what ppl tink abt me and i dont care bt otha ppl feelings. i had enuf been too good to others and cares for thier heart. i had enuff of that. why, shud i cares for others heart if they dont care what i feels. im sick and tired been angel to them. ppl may think im decent and i look like a nice person. well, ppl stop judging ppl frm the cover.
i hate been good to them..you may think im quiet you can fuck me off like dat. hello? im not the ol Fauziah. d nerdy and d pimple girl. ive changed k... A new girl with self confidence and determined. i hate to give ppl chances and i speak fast and forward. i dont care what you think abt me...i speak direct and i dont care abt the surrounding me wen im pissed off. i yelled at my bf infront of my sch mates. we quarrel, i showed attitude problem and ma fcuking face in public...i dont feel ashamed at ol...i just want to be the way i am. the perfect me...
You can see me nice and swit from outside...but im not. you cant fooled ard with me. Like i say..i hate been too good... let me hurt you, dont you ever messed with me. GET IT???
it seems like sucha long time i didnt update my entry. sch holiday doesn't seem like holiday been busy with work and goin out wif bf and bla bla bla. hardly have a time wif my mates and so on. Now sch reopen still d same. last two week im fcuking bored i tot i want to check my email and fwenster but stoopid comp cant switch on. i dunnoe wads wrg with my fcking cpu. is like turn on and off by its own. geram sak. i cursed like hell full with bad cursing. i think is my dad or bro. i dont know which one. i didnt pin point at anyone but the fact lar. my dad using the comp morning to night and off midnight. can u imagined dat? wen asked him to turn off he will scold us bck this lar dat lar...bingit lah...and drag and dragGGG....so wen he using the comp we just shut up...my bro turn now, he same like my dad. main game tk ingat time. bingitttt.....
today, visit my aunt at the hospital. she just giving birth to a baby boy. he's cute.....
today, is ma bad2 day....
fuck u all lah...
Sunday, June 12, 2005
A new other entry for myself. im off today. Good. no phone calls from work.
Yest, working was very hectic and so busy. having a gastric pain due not eating regular and i havent take my breakfast and its late to take it. werk start at 1, i left my house 11 plus and tk sempat taking my lunch at the cafe. Day by days goes by im sick and tired of werking at seah street. i dont why mebbe the ppl ard there and the environment. Always get scolded by Gurmit even he jus joking but i take it SERIOUSLY. always find my fault. FUCKED SIAL. i come to werk not to get scolded by him and joking ard i come to enjoy my werk not to get pissed by all the people ard dere. CHIBAI. mebbe im too sensitive or mebbe he too over the limit. HELL LAH. i have my limits dont get me so fucked up and give him a tight slap.
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My mum asked me to stop werking cos due my bleeding. i told her abt werk must carry all those heavy thing and she dont like it. Girls supposely not to carry all those heavy thing in the pantry like boxes of cans, big tong full of ice and carry cups and glasses and she really worried about me cos im still bled. im strong babey. i dont care carry those heavy things if the environment are good. Hari asked me to transfer to BBR. whoa...Hari the manager. erms...
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i really enjoyed my of today. i dont what's went wrong just now my mood turns upside down. i dont know who's fault actually.WTH. really sial. im damn pissed. SPOILT MY MOOD SIAL. i dont know whose fault actually so shut up! i can do anything if im totally angry fucking angry dont test my patience limits and dont get me angry with you and dont makes you feels miserable and regret ur life forever and dont seek forgiveness from me and my heart wont melts with the apologise thingy. i dont care whu you are in my life wen im angry i dont care who you are. i tink you dont know about me in the fullest of myself. SO PERGI MAMPOS LAR. AKU NK ENJOY AKU NYER OFF. TKMO KACAU AKU LAR.
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i really love to listen Tentang Kita By Peter Pan and Jera, Agnes Monica.
helloo, GUYS.
im back again. is lyke ages i didnt update my blog. been busy even thought is sch hols and 1 more thing this fucking pop up blogger really makes me wanna to give up my blog. fucked sial.
erms. ok. im happy this while nuthing makes me sad only one thing makes me go worried like a mad woman running naked in the shopping centre. abt ma period thingy. its still flowing as a regular day even thought going fifth day, i dunno how many day alredy. mebbe taking the wrong medicine and its bleeding. bingit sak. i nid to buy more pad and more and more. bangkrupt lar aku ginie. haha. mebbe nxt wk going to see the doctor. wish me recover soon kay. bye.
Monday, June 06, 2005
no mood to update.
Friday, June 03, 2005
im not fine today.
NOT FYNE.
really.
upset, depressed, sad, angry and wasoever lahhh.
Firstly, im so sick. havin a rashes plus swell on my face due takin sum medicine dat im so allegic. really so fcukkk. now getting betta not like yest. and hardly breath cus my heart swelll too. and keep vomiting as i drinl and eat. really feel so fuck yest. sleeping all the wall. mcm oik oik.
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secondly now. havent recovered yet. still like the negro lip and china eye. oh wadsoever lah. AND MY PAY HAVENT IN YET. ARGH. SEDIH SAK. BILE AKU NK RASE DUIT TITIK PELUH AKU SAK. EEE, SIAL LAH. BINGIT NYER. BILE NK MSK DAH LASH LAST 2 WEEK TK DAPAT DRG CKP MSK THIS MONTH NYER GAJI. HARAP2 MSK HARI NIE TK PON BESOK. ARGH. BOLE GILERR....
