Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Today is very pathetic to me and im totally upset with myself bein careless. how i really wish i could turn back the time. argh. it just a wish and we couldnt turn back the time and past. that's why people goes saying what past is past. yah. is still a past but as a human being have feeling we still cant forget our past and its still in our memories. haha. sorry, im not emo over here. its just a view of mine.
i lost my adidas watch. yah, my dream watch and now the dream had gone away. a precious watch to me. A gift from my dearest ones. im so sad and i cant stop crying went im thinking about it cause i feel so bad. A gift from someone whom you love and you lost it. wont you feel so sad and feel bad about it? exsive you dont appreciate the gift. shit. im angry with myself. i just cant stop crying and i feels so ashamed crying infront of people whom i didnt know and especially infront of my bf and fwens. i really cant stop the tears. i tried to stop it but i cant. i feel so ashamed of it. am so emotional just now. when i was watching tv with ibu. she told she's also will feels so bad about it. hahak. i tink she's know i cried and how i felt. thnks ibu. atleast there's someone know how i feel.
i feels so miserable cause how can i returned the watch back to him one day? how am i goin to repay it back cause i dunwant myself in debt with him. oh, god please help me. i really wish tmrw i found that watch and i really hope there's a kind person returned my watch back. amin.
she feeling upset today.
