Saturday, April 30, 2005
im goin to start my work nxt thur.
Cant wait to work.
i really hope i love the environment thre and d friends too.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Been busy lately and ive no time for blogging and watsoever. when reached home frm sch my sis using the comp lately so its hard to update my entry.
yesterday, was a tiring day for me. skip my theory class and rushed to get home quickly cos i nid to reached at cityhall at 2 abt the job thingy. haha. sorry zul for been late and thnks abt the job thingy.=)
guess wad. i skipped my practical today with the 3 guys (shafik, karim and my bf) and we headed to lib our usually routine wen we have a free time. haha...having a great time with them and my dearest bf. haha. thnks bf. oh, shud i say welum?lols...
okla. im tired. bubyes.
yesterday, was a tiring day for me. skip my theory class and rushed to get home quickly cos i nid to reached at cityhall at 2 abt the job thingy. haha. sorry zul for been late and thnks abt the job thingy.=)
guess wad. i skipped my practical today with the 3 guys (shafik, karim and my bf) and we headed to lib our usually routine wen we have a free time. haha...having a great time with them and my dearest bf. haha. thnks bf. oh, shud i say welum?lols...
okla. im tired. bubyes.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
im fucking bored rite now. yeps. suppose today goin out looking fer job but faezah cant make it. pity her and her larling. i really hope both of you can find the 2 bloody asshole fer taking ur hp and serve him to hell. they're so mean fer hurting the innocent victim. jus fer a money they dare to robbed the innocent victim and slashed or stab the victim. dear, god please helped those on needs.
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i planned fer the evening goin out to the lib with yana. hope she can make it. if not im going out alone or with my alien brother. yeps. so i really wish my day turn out to be great. amin.
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i miss ijal. woohoo. cant wait till monday. Dear, i miss you so much! sungguh!.
outta here.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
hello everybody.
yesterday, i didnt go blogging, im so tired back frm sch. take my long shower, eat and went to take a nap den turn out slepping.Nyahaha. yah. Monday and wednesday the longest lesson i have morn to evening and practical was so slacked. sitting on the bench doing nuthing. my back really hurts cause there's nuthing to leaned on. luckily i bring my book so can occupied my boredom in workshop.
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Today, school as usual. sleppy and so restless and again practical as usual BORING AND SLACKED. urgh. yeah. i finished reading my book and joshua borrowed me his book as his promised me yesterday to borrowed this book about catholic. yah. quite interesting wen he told me abt the book and i urged to read that book but too bad he bring me other book instead the catholic book. Thoery at first doing fine and turn out to be bad to our teacher and some of my fellow classmates. yah. abt the divert thingy. i dont know who started it first. Herman quek argued with derrick and so on. hahaha. i dont bother at all. i went to take a nap but i cant sleep quite noisy in class abt the argueing thing.
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im alone right now. mum and dad went to sleep after my father check up at the amara hotel and bro and busu also went to sleep too. im bored at home but lucky dla ask me to conference so we can chat about sumthing and i wont be lonely. i put down the fone when bf call me up. we chat fer awhile. he got sumthing to do outside. nvm lah.
im alone right now. i hate someone neglected me and i hate to get alone. i need someone to cheer me up but not outsiders.urgh. hehee. someone online right now. he can cheer me up. yeah. nvm lah. d outsiders can cheer me up.
so im outta here.
daa.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
hello, peeps
thnks fer tag me up and still blog hopping. eh, yana can u update urs? i really miss reading ur entry about ur love story. YANA, update..
erms, ok back to my entry. today, am having a great time with the 3 monkeys. haha.u shud noe whu if u really reading my entry all this while. so u will noe am i reffering to. this week i reallly hate going to practical cause dere's nuthing to do. ive finished my project since last week. today practical was so slacked. all we do is sitting on the bench fer 4 hours inc the time break and chit chatting amg ech otha.
starting frm now i nid to save money and not spending too much dat not so important and i need to ferget the stuff i wanted. dad's having problem and so do mum's and so do us as a kids. so as a kids we need to understand thier situations and my dad is d only sole breadwinner in this house. im so sad and pity to my dad. i noe how he feels esp my mum. she's alwys having headached and fallen a sick. so we goin ups and downs together as a one big family. no matter wad i stil love u dad and mom.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
yesterday.
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i told ya dat im goin out with karim,shafik and my bf. But the 2 fwen of mine cant turn up. shafik have sumthing on at the hos and karim got soccer. kinda sad cos ive had imagined that our day will be turn up to be fun. yah. when four of us together we will be crazie of jokes and laughter. hahak. so only me and ijal went out to town together. yeps. i really hope both of them can turn up in last mins. but too bad. haha. i had much fun yesterday even tho only 2 of us.
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went shopping with darl. he needs to buy his own stuff. yah, u noe guy stuff and i was so uhhuh. im not comfortable went to men's department so i just close one eyes. haha. afta that we went to lido to catch at movie and having our lunch dere. afta that we went fer a walk, window shopping, actually dere's alot i want browse in the shop but i prefer went shopping with girls rather the guys. so i didnt survey the price want am gonna to buy next wk if my mum give me the money. i saw this gallaz shoe at splash and flash kinda nice and the quatity is not bad the cost is abt 85 bucks. haha. if i ask my mum abt the shoe surely she wont allowed me and she will say its jus a shoe and its so expensive not worth it and bla bla bla. ferget it den. mebbe one day i will get the shoe by my own money. i DESPERATELY WANT A JOB.
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i desperately nid a job. argh. i want to buy lotsa stuff and i dont need to bother my parents about money. if i have a job i can spend my own stuff and i have lotsa saving in the bank. but my asses so lazy to find ones. i really hope the lazyness in me decreased. arghh. sungguh geram yest wen i was in town. how i really wish am a rich girl. llalala...
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i told ya dat im goin out with karim,shafik and my bf. But the 2 fwen of mine cant turn up. shafik have sumthing on at the hos and karim got soccer. kinda sad cos ive had imagined that our day will be turn up to be fun. yah. when four of us together we will be crazie of jokes and laughter. hahak. so only me and ijal went out to town together. yeps. i really hope both of them can turn up in last mins. but too bad. haha. i had much fun yesterday even tho only 2 of us.
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went shopping with darl. he needs to buy his own stuff. yah, u noe guy stuff and i was so uhhuh. im not comfortable went to men's department so i just close one eyes. haha. afta that we went to lido to catch at movie and having our lunch dere. afta that we went fer a walk, window shopping, actually dere's alot i want browse in the shop but i prefer went shopping with girls rather the guys. so i didnt survey the price want am gonna to buy next wk if my mum give me the money. i saw this gallaz shoe at splash and flash kinda nice and the quatity is not bad the cost is abt 85 bucks. haha. if i ask my mum abt the shoe surely she wont allowed me and she will say its jus a shoe and its so expensive not worth it and bla bla bla. ferget it den. mebbe one day i will get the shoe by my own money. i DESPERATELY WANT A JOB.
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i desperately nid a job. argh. i want to buy lotsa stuff and i dont need to bother my parents about money. if i have a job i can spend my own stuff and i have lotsa saving in the bank. but my asses so lazy to find ones. i really hope the lazyness in me decreased. arghh. sungguh geram yest wen i was in town. how i really wish am a rich girl. llalala...
Friday, April 15, 2005
hello peeps.
I got two blog and its hard fer me to update which ones. so you can just link to another blog. ok?
yesterday, im so happie. very happy and i jus cant stop smiling or laffing. i dunno why what got into me. yest, it just a normal day fer me and im so happie. *grins*
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mebbe i received chocolate from my monster bf. hahak. surprised me and plus shocked when i open up my bag at home. i told my mum abt this. my mum sae mebbe frm ijal. argh, that bf of mine nk kene frm me nie. i call his hp he picked up and i ask him izit he left sumthing in my bag but he no. so i asking who's choc is that. hahaha. he laffing over dere and the choc meant to me. argh. surprises again. ya, well i like surprises but sometime depends lah what surprises. haha..thnks dear. i havent give u anything i mean gifts or wadever. so, please no more gifts for me. i havent repay back to you.
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mebbe tmrw im goin out with shafik, karim and of course my bf. ahh..i cant wait till tmrw to comes. i really wish shafik can make it or else it will not be so fun without him ard. i really hope he coming alg and our day will be much fun. *yeah*
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tata fer now..
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Im not feeling well today. Havin flu since yesterday and its annoyed me very much. When this morning i woke up my chest really hurt its like something stuck inside and my throat really hurt. In school im having a gastric pain mebbe due to eating unregulary. its like turn and off. I told pames about this cause she alwys having a chest pain.
After school we went to the causeway. i noe thier planned to go to the lib. i tod after going to causeway i want to go home. im really weak and the weather quite hot and i started to have migraine. all i wanted is go home after goin to causeway. But the 3 guys forced me to go the lib and shafik called me a chicken. haha. Im quite angry with my bf cause i told him really wanted to go home. cant he knows that im sick with my flu and also sekaki tag team with shafik and karim. terpakse lah ikut kate drg. i didnt talked much with them in the lib and ijal keep asking me this and that. annoying me. dah lah im having a chest pain and flu plus migraine and then byk colok pulak. when we left the library he wants to sent me home i rejected it and i think he quite hurt wen i say serious in a high tone. i didnt mean it but im sick and i really wants to get home the earlier the better. can say lah im quite geram with him. Urgh.
i can easily fall a sick and i tink my metabolic getting decreased by month.
bubyes.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Firstly im goin to say that i hate bitch. stoopid low class bitches or watever who is a bitch. who look so cheap and depending on others, fooling ard behave like a monkeys. Jus some bitch in this world guys tod all women are bitches too who give in easily. hey, cum on. please have ur own respect by ur ownself. dont fooling ard and look so cheap in you.
hah. i nvr tod you change alots with more farking attitude in you. do you know what you are a trouble makers depends in other and boasting ppl ard you and makes ur own fwen like a slave. hak. do you think ppl ard you like you as u mind says that. HELLO, wake up bitch they jus sympathy on you and esp guys take advantage on ya. when u r fall one day u noe ur wrong doing in this world. u used to say it a sins or watever and know do u noe u making alots of sins? hak. i dont have a time advising abt this and that. i have enuf of ur pathetic face and stoopid bunch of stories. i may a gd friend but doesnt mean you can take me as your slave or your gd listener and watver la bitch. i cant believe u had change alots i mean stoopid low class bitch even u are clever and you have that looks but in my eye you look so cheap, friend. i respect the high class bitch.
haha. even they fooling ard they didnt make theirself looks so cheap in the eye of the men.
im sick and tired of your attitude problem. i had enuf of you.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
who hoo..
i found my watch.
heh heh.
Link to my 2nd blog.
share with my bf.
thanks.
bye.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Today is very pathetic to me and im totally upset with myself bein careless. how i really wish i could turn back the time. argh. it just a wish and we couldnt turn back the time and past. that's why people goes saying what past is past. yah. is still a past but as a human being have feeling we still cant forget our past and its still in our memories. haha. sorry, im not emo over here. its just a view of mine.
i lost my adidas watch. yah, my dream watch and now the dream had gone away. a precious watch to me. A gift from my dearest ones. im so sad and i cant stop crying went im thinking about it cause i feel so bad. A gift from someone whom you love and you lost it. wont you feel so sad and feel bad about it? exsive you dont appreciate the gift. shit. im angry with myself. i just cant stop crying and i feels so ashamed crying infront of people whom i didnt know and especially infront of my bf and fwens. i really cant stop the tears. i tried to stop it but i cant. i feel so ashamed of it. am so emotional just now. when i was watching tv with ibu. she told she's also will feels so bad about it. hahak. i tink she's know i cried and how i felt. thnks ibu. atleast there's someone know how i feel.
i feels so miserable cause how can i returned the watch back to him one day? how am i goin to repay it back cause i dunwant myself in debt with him. oh, god please help me. i really wish tmrw i found that watch and i really hope there's a kind person returned my watch back. amin.
she feeling upset today.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
HIKMAH
Allah tidak akan memberikan
cobaan melebihi kemampuan manusia.
Barang siapa yang bertakwa
dan berserah padaNYA
akan mendapat
Hikmah-Nya.
*a nice msg getting it frm sumone blog.
urgh.
i donno why i was so tense. i mean tense up and getting into my nerve and its gonna blow up one day. i donno why i feel this way and my whole body so aching and so rimas. i tried getting myself to sleep and relax my mind. it wouldnt work either. i donno what to do. am i under despressed or watever with it! blah! urgh. quite annoying wen i feel this way.
Ard noon meet my bf but i dont feel like meeting him even thou i miss him. hak. i dont know why i react this way. i can get pissed off easily with ppl ard me. yeps, especially who makes me feels so fark up and uncomfortable to my eye. Eee, i dunno why i feel this way. Faizal, say i need a anger management. haha. mebbe. how gd if my house near to the beach and i can shout everything out. loud as i can. haha. too bad. if HDB can makes noise surely i will scream my lung out. haha. but luckily cant or else the resident think im crazy. haha. but i dont cares what ppl think of me atleast i feel relieved that fine with me. haha. but i didnt did that.
theres alot of things playing on my mind. i mean everything happen in this world. yah. im not a person who can share problem with anyone. a minor problem i shared with my mum and ppl i comfortable with. i can settle my own thing but it takes time. i nid to make myself occupied and busy. yea. tmrw schooling and get busy with friends and hopefully tmrw my mood not spoilt.
erms. did i make a right choice and a right path? i really confused. yah, this entry tk kene mengene with my tense up. i really hope this is my right path to my next day and so on. a right choice for me and it didnt hurt me one day. insyallah.
till here,
bye.
i donno why i was so tense. i mean tense up and getting into my nerve and its gonna blow up one day. i donno why i feel this way and my whole body so aching and so rimas. i tried getting myself to sleep and relax my mind. it wouldnt work either. i donno what to do. am i under despressed or watever with it! blah! urgh. quite annoying wen i feel this way.
Ard noon meet my bf but i dont feel like meeting him even thou i miss him. hak. i dont know why i react this way. i can get pissed off easily with ppl ard me. yeps, especially who makes me feels so fark up and uncomfortable to my eye. Eee, i dunno why i feel this way. Faizal, say i need a anger management. haha. mebbe. how gd if my house near to the beach and i can shout everything out. loud as i can. haha. too bad. if HDB can makes noise surely i will scream my lung out. haha. but luckily cant or else the resident think im crazy. haha. but i dont cares what ppl think of me atleast i feel relieved that fine with me. haha. but i didnt did that.
theres alot of things playing on my mind. i mean everything happen in this world. yah. im not a person who can share problem with anyone. a minor problem i shared with my mum and ppl i comfortable with. i can settle my own thing but it takes time. i nid to make myself occupied and busy. yea. tmrw schooling and get busy with friends and hopefully tmrw my mood not spoilt.
erms. did i make a right choice and a right path? i really confused. yah, this entry tk kene mengene with my tense up. i really hope this is my right path to my next day and so on. a right choice for me and it didnt hurt me one day. insyallah.
till here,
bye.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Saturday morning, me and huda went for a breakfast ard my neighbourhood. actually we planned to for a jog at the wlds stadium. due to the whether we cancelled our planned and decided to take breakfast together. yep. i ordered nasi padang n huda roti prata. after eating we went for walk ard marsiling area. haha. yea. we shared alot of things, problem, happiness, guys and bf's. after chilling ard huda come to my house to do her business in my toilet den we chilling ard my house. turn by turn using the room. wen she using the comp i take a nap and goes ard the opposite ways.
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im totally upset today but luckily huda comfort me and she makes me happy. yah. so, put aside the sadness and what past is past. urgh. having a great time with her even my heart ache. we took lotsa picture and ibu said we are lesbian. haha. bixesexual. haha. no lah. im straight. dont think the other way round. i miss my day with my girls wen we're still in secondary sch. haha. michevious me. i miss ain, aishah, yati, sam, linda and my classmates. haha. urgh, i miss those days. how i wish i can turn back the time and i miss my form teacher miss thia. =( secondary sch life is more better than ite.
bubbye.
urgh.
still awake. freshy morning.
nah, actually i tink, right now im still sleeping if huda didnt ring at my hp and i ferget to change my hp profile to the lower volume. kinda shocked of the vibration. yah, cos my hp jus beside me. haha.
i dunno what to do ard this time. bored to the core. yah. cant get to sleep. ughh. nah, i didnt blamed anyone jus blame myself for taking a nap early. haha.
im feel bad. haha. i tod faizal ferget about our date. hak. in msn he told me what i had ferget about yesterday. haa. supposely i nid to call faizal on thurs but i really2 ferget about it. hah, he waiting for my call since on thur and friday. totally ferget abt it. he dun dare to call me cos he knows i will nvr ans his call. ntah lah. now, i really feel guilty abt it. but, im glad i ferget abt our date cos i dun dare to sae to him i cant make it. yah, my bf dont allowed me. i respect his decission.argh, ferget it lah.
yesterday, im freaking happy. haha..dear been punk'd by me. haha.lols. great. love you so muchy monster.
im bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to get to bed.
