Sunday, March 13, 2005
Life aint that perfect.yah. i'm so sicked and tired of rising this journey as my life routine when im bored to the core. update, watever in my mind. so i just update and update and bla bla bla...haix. i might seemed happy. But does anyone knows what i really feels inside me? im a good pretender right.
I have a good mood today. can sae hardworking for today only. went to shop. washed my busu clothes, my dustcoat and my younger sis school shoes using my own hand. no washing machine. complaint to ibu that my leg aching because i was squating down too long inside the toilet and she's in the kitchen says "pakailah, washing machine." heh heh...continue to do my job. im having so much fun in the toilet playing the bubblesssss and wet myself..wee...im alergic to chemical and watever with it and my palm started to dry. i try many ways to get my hands soft and even ayah bought me a mosturizer lotion for me. "anak dare skrg buat keje sikit tak bole. itulah inilah..." says ibu...heh heh...love u ibu, ayah...
bloated stomach. Ibu made for us mutton chop i simply lurvin it watever she cook. i really wish im a gd housewife, mother and a great cooker like her in the future. heh heh. amin. im craving fer more. nowadays im craving for more foods. Gaining more weight and fats in me. fat stomach, fat chin and fats everywhere in my body. haix. i think i need to control myself about foods butttttttt i simply can't. i loves to eat. Ibu always remind me " ckp nk diet?..."and i jus smile to her and dig in. heh heh. But i now i need to control myself. i dunwant to be fat later people starts to give judge on me. i really hope i still look the same old fauziah and what i ate easily burn the fats in me. i always forget to do my sit ups...haix...mebbe im stress of sumthing or im happy dats why i eat more...*grin*
. craving more chocolates...
