Saturday, February 26, 2005
im feeling down and a lil emo here...hehe...yah..every human must have d same feels like me. i dunno why i had this feeling...yepps..mebbe due to d weather outside. raining or d msg he send me and i misunderstood the msg...hahhaa....
i noe im not a gd girl fer him and i asking him to finds otha girls dat betta den me. i didnt treat him so well and i still remember d day he was angry wif me cos i ignoring him and i asking him why looking at me and i shift away sat beside joshua. i dunno wheather joshua and me touching each otha cos i used to closed to him cus we r same group and we shared each otha problem... suddenly i saw him standing and walk away wif his angry face..oh no...and i ask my fwens wad happen to him and haikal told me its my fault..oh god, wad had i done this time round...im about to cry at his locker wen im asking him...he jus say "nuthing" if "nuthing" why he react dat way..and i keep pestering him to tell me wads wrong...he tell me not too closed to joshua and jdn main darah...hahaha..now i noe he gets jealous....i noe d meaning why he do dats...on the day i didnt talk much jus laying my head at the table...he asking me why...i jus shake my head and he rub my neck...i like him do dat..feels so pamper excive im a small baby been pamper...and jus now i ask him to find otha great girls out there but he say he dont wanna love me...erms, can i bear to lose him??? my ans is no.....
He a greatest guy i noe...a caring person and a passionate man...i like everything he do...yah...i feels like im a baby...really..thnks darlx..i really appreciate wad u do...and i try my best d one thing from me...hahaha.....
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
-you kpo-
i noe u will check it out my blog...
happy now...
=)
school start as per normal at 8 usually. we are later fer assembly jus a few minutes late and d gate were closed...hahaha...
worshop today nuthing much to do...cause at 11 we have a talk thingy at theathre...much slacking today and bunch of clowns...hehee....brighten up my day esp wif darls...yepp, i cherish the moments we had together...haha, but i dunno the opposite side. does he feels the same way like i do???
actually i nvr had this moments before...yepps...his d first guy i had this precious moments...i nvr had this feelings before wif my ex's...yep, the feeling of been in love..hahakx...isnt dat swit? hehehe....
sch end at 2 but we went home at 115...teacher r late so we went home...isnt dat cool...ahhaha...
take a train home and three of us take a nap...luckily we didnt miss it...
mit yana...her eyes swolen due to her contact lens...hehehe...kecian dier....
about sat???
im having a great time....thnks d-la...u r swit and fwenly...fun hang out wif u girls...having fun....kiter kua lagi kay???faezah, ikot skali larh...sorry, girls havent upload the pic we snap on d last sat..no time larh..busy wif sch thingy...lain kali kay...miss u girls...muacks.....
Friday, February 18, 2005
Sch todae kinda sux...slacking and still im tired..mebbe im getting older...an old woman...hahaha...stoopid classmates. evil laff . lame jokes and stressful teacher. kuang3...
stuffy over here . navy blue polo collar t . sweating as a dripping tap water . mr rahman talking abt d 2.4 km run nxt two week. walking like a zombie . guys like monkey. and . girls like a snake . [ crazie + lazy ]...
[ d e v o t e d . t o . h i m ]
ain't no singLe anymore
Monday, February 14, 2005
heya, today sch is really tired, warm, fun and lotsa laffing today and a long day today at sch...hhehe...yepp...
having fun disturbing ijal...hahhaa...served him right...well, i jus joking not threating him to feels bad abt it...hahha...i pissed him off...and i ignored him and give a slumber face to him...and i dunno my words hurting somebody else...hahaha...but it cool...wen our break end he call me and i ignored him...and haikal said why i treat him like dat....hahaha, i feels bad afta haikal told me...he msg me sorry wad he had done...hahhaa, im d one whu sud sorry to him..
he send me home today...he insisted it...gasak dier laa...hahhaa....i nvr expected he done dat..hehhee...its so swit...my feelings to him getting deeper and deepperrrrrr.....
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Saturday, February 12, 2005
im stress this days. arGh, i dunno wad to do. i becoming a bad girl. i hurts people feeling everday. im so bad, bad , bad , bad girl. my mom didnt teach me this. she's will totally upset about me if i tell her my problem. im sorry mom..i didnt listening to you. but, otha thinks im right but otha thinks im wrong. with ones??? i scare i cant hold it animore. i didnt means to hurt this 2 guys who had entered my life and cherish me. but, i alwys hurt dem esp one of this 2 guy i known.
which ones will i choose???
which ones is really that i loves???
which ones is really fer me???
i dunno which ones to chose...
my sis ask me to double cross dem..
timer...
im not dat sort of person...
wad she says is right...
if i chose one of dem...
i will regret...
both r gd to me...
both r nice to me...
both i like..
im sorry, 19 wants to me meet..he got a surprised fer me..i cant meet him...he told me last min...and of course i cant meet him cause i have a date today with 17...he asked me out and i ned to pass his mp3...19 have a surprise fer me dat he bought fer me yesterday and he ferget to tell me...and he scared the thing will spoilt...i ask him to give to his sib and mom but he say dat surprise meant fer me no othas...arghh...i promised 17 to meet him tody...and i break again 19 heart again and again...im confused right now...which ones shud i chose???timer??? no please...
i will hurt 2 feeling and my feeling too....and now one 18 guy had crush on me..but he had hurt my feelings yesterday...and he feels bad abt it...had sent me apology msg many times until i had to switch off my hp...please ray me a light and shown me a right way...
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Today, so much of slacking...bored to d core..nuthing much to do or shud i say nuthing to do...so bored..and d shop downstairs opposite my shop is closed..arghh..so bored...to chinese ppl they r havin fun but fer non chinese feels extremly bored...
Hahahaha.....
24/7 using the comp...
im d only one who conquer the comp today...
sis goin out wif her fwen..
bro soccer training.
lil sis goin out wif my uncle..
and i???
erms....
jus slacking at home...
making shit at home
and butt getting bigger
and lazier me...
ahhaha..
dats me...
hehehee..
im bored...
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
hola, im back again..sorry peeps been busy this days...busy with sch..yups, you know...busy girl katerkan..ahakz...Busy, with my workpiece...so slow sia group "A" d machine is like fark..manual not the automatic like grp b...A's jus started doing the 3 piece and grp B's goin to finish thier 4th piece...argh, never mind..mind mind lai..
Today, my first time coming to assembly...so excited and i woke up at 6 and take shower so early in the morn not like the usual day..6.30 baru mandi...hahaha...leave the house at ard 6.50, ijal msg me he now at bukit batok...kelam kabut kua umah...saw my ex and ex schmates...hahaa...gawd, wad happen to him he look so restless and clumsy...hhahaa...but're still cute forever in my heart...remind you as fwen only...i saw ijal inside the train where's d otha's? he so early...ahhaa...gd den...he's trying to woo my heart and trust...hohoho...well, he look so restless and sleepy but i liked him wearing sch uniform..smart and neat..faisal, kt train punyer lah kecoh...
shit, assembly totally so lame..this is my first and last coming to assembly..so lame and so lil of student coming to assembly not like bishan...sedia still they can move and chat away..hahha...haikal and ijal still can make jokes behind me...i feels so bad to ijal..he stay at jurong NTI and he wake up early just to accompany me go assembly...*grins* i told him next time no need to go for the ass...he jus keep laffing...hahaha...
we cleaned the workshop. clean away the metal chip in the machine and all over the workshop..broom broom broom...dah mcm servant...wash the floor, play the water, so enjoy and so tiring...mr herman treat us drink..save duit...hahaa...he released us early 30 mins...wait fer ijal outside his workshop and i take a nap..so sleppy and tired...haikal wake me up whether i want to go in to see dem doin thier test but i just simply shake my head with my sleppy face and he sat beside me and i asked him can i borrow his shoulder fer awhile...and i just shut my eye...siak punyer tomok he snap my pic wen im sleeping...wen i wake up ijal beside me..hhaa..so paiseh...den we knock off...and again stoopid bunch of my fwen leave both of us again...so i and ijal went home together...we didnt chat much..he sleppy and i also sleepy...
yeah, bought a new sport bra's...pink color..ahaha...only got dat size...
im bored today and tomorrow...
he werking...
double paid...
miss him...
watever la eh...
i miss you girls...
biler nk kua lagii...
aku ader dua hari public hols...
kol la aku...
kiter kua....
faezah dah karets...
tkper aku ingat..
yana still d same
syg yana...
faezah dah action
nanak syg dier
hahhaa
joking jek
i miss you so badly...
kiterrr kuaaa artghhhhh.....
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
im a bit sloppy today...haish, derrick is so irritating and so dirty minded...i dun like him...he's so bad...hahhaa....i really hate his attitude kinda a son of bitch...he think im so cheap...he think i dun hav a pride...he can sae watever he wants in the public about woman parts?...he's so kinda a jerk...jerk ass....who cares if he apology to me so many times...i dun give a damn...he nver change...
sch today as per normal...late fer assembly...practical, is so suck but fun..i injured my finger..a deep cut...hahhaa...and my hand gettting rougher and rougher...
Sch ends at 1.45....goin home wif the some people, Ijal, shafik, karim and wan and his one of his fwen...hahhaa...wan and ijal so crazy n the train...they make jokes...lousy jokes...hahha....btw, i liked the way ijal smile...he's so cute, girls....hahhaa...yups...
