Saturday, January 22, 2005
Thinking of you makes me go crazy it jus cant stop it...i really hate it you know that? But, i don't know whether you're thinking of me too? kinda torturing myself..Every seconds, minutes, hours and evrytime make myself uncomfortable what i do is always not right for me...i really wish you really mean it...yupx...Cause i started to have feeling towards you. Hahaha...*sigh* if you read this i know you will laughing at me? mebbe! and you will feel honour cause you didnt clap ur one hand.... well, i hope we are right for each otha...yups...
You been waiting for the answer "yes" from my own mouth. But, you know i kept saying i don't know. Cause i dont know what to say to you. hahaa...you said that waiting can be tortured...im sorry about that...I hope you didnt change you mind about it...*bismilahirahmanirahim* i dont' want to lose you but i dont know am i really the girl in your heart or can i makes you happy...haish..thinking also quite torturing not jus waiting....
Actually im scare to start it again. i scare to get hurt and get dumped..i dont want to start it again. i just hate to have this feeling...i jus simply hate it...but, u makes me into this again...i just don't want to be like my past...i jus hate being hurt or getting you get hurt or wateva lah....but, but but you start it...i hate it...you come to my life is really hurt me...well, you ask me to forget about my past and the present involved me...should i put my selfishnes behind me and should i start a new life again? and give u a chance and myself too?
