Sunday, January 30, 2005
heLo,
i jus need a peace..a peace of mind, surrounding and everything...arghh..i jus need a peace and i need a break...i need to finds out who am i actually...im so confused...did, i did the right thing???
Hiash...who am i actually???
Did, i do the right thing? did, hurting ppl heart makes me a right thing to do? even my heart are also hurt...wad, really shud i do...why, im alwys getting ppl hurt even i realized i did a wrg things..but, i can forced myself to be happy, no problem and watever is it...i tried to forced myself but in the end i cant..i really cant...dats not me...jus to makes ppl happy i sascrificed my own feelings...gawd..i hate it wen hurts ppl feeling esp love....why, wen in relationship matters theres must be problem with me...im a fickle minded or wad??? i jus need my own true loves..dats all...why me...wen love matters....im losing out...falling apart...i really cannot set up my mind...shit...i hate this...i hate myself in this matters....i still never felt the true love...gawd...i hurt him...i hurt anyones..i hurt you...i hurt everyone....and i hurt myself too....i really hope this the last time i hurt ppl feelings....i really wished too...i pray to god...god's wills.....
i really hope this a gd choice dat i did...leave him....a gd fer both of us.....
